I am hoping that by writing this research paper and applying various sociological theories, perspectives and concepts to my personal trouble, I will be able to step back and gain a deeper understanding of an issue that has left me constantly trying to prove to myself and others that I can be better, do better and accomplish more. My continuing struggle with the belief that I am completely incapable of success, despite being a graduating student with a 4.0 grade point average, has resulted in an enormous amount of self-doubt that leaves me questioning my abilities each time I have an assignment to complete. As a result of this exploration, I find that while I do not feel as though I am chasing the wrong things, I do feel as though I am not putting as much effort into those things that mean the most to me. I have realized that I can be successful with both my grades and in my relationships; it is possible to balance the two. Even more, being successful and being perfect are two different things. In the past I have viewed the two as being interchangeable, which is not the case. My definition of being successful has differed as I have realized that it takes more than having perfect grades, but rather living up to my full potential, growing, becoming a better person, maintaining strong relationships, making time for the little pleasures in life, and truly being happy, not only with my accomplishments in school, but outside of it as well.